Sunday, October 12, 2008

Bad days aint good...

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These past few days have not treated me well. I have been and is still going through a series of tremendously bad mood days complimented by unwise decisions and unrespectful individuals.


It started with the end of a bad, stressful, dissapointing and frustrating Wednesday at the office. Walaupun it may sound like it's just a small thing to others, it is a big matter to me as I have been deprived of this particular opportunity (and missed other opportunities as well) for the past two years while watching other people enjoying what they do not deserve.


Having no mood to work, I brought back some reading materials home, hoping I could recuperate by then. I had to read some documents for me to prepare a paper, as directed, to which I am so not sure of the content. Knowing me, I would be reading the document letter by letter and digesting the meaning until I could really understand the whole thing for me to formulate my own understanding. By then it was already 11.30 pm and Kakak and Danisy were already asleep. Desperate Housewives pun dah habis.



My mind was so fresh and alert and yet it was already 1.00 am. Dah puas tukar channel nak cari cerita menarik but unfortunately semuanya amat membosankan and yet tak cukup untuk membuatkan Mak Lijah mengantuk. Then I started communicating accross the globe, still hoping I would get bored and sleepy eventually. But nooo...


I finished my paper, finally, at 4.30 am, stil feeling fresh. But by then, I decided that I have to stop my brain from overworking or there'll be a short circuit somewhere, soon. As soon I closed my eyes, I had a dream which I could not remember now and at 5.45 am sharp, I just woke up even before the alarm clock started to scream. And I was still fresh!


The next few days were not any better. Felt like kicking people.


And today just topped it all because Abang broke his promise. He promised that he would be back early at 7.30 pm in return for my consent to allow him to go to his friend's open house. I must have been insane to allow him to spend this evening away from home when he would be sitting for his PMR tomorrow morning.


It is five to ten pm now and he is still not back at home. Every other night, he would have been in his room either playing on his PC or the least, studying (much to my yelling). How can I trust him anymore? I have given my all to see that he would get the best education, the best of his time, and what not just to get worries in return. What kind of a mother am I to allow him enjoy his life?


All the best to you, Abang. I cannot possibly talk to you now without feeling the anger brewing in me, much to my dislike. This is not what I have in my mind on the eve of his PMR. I would have thought it would have been a peaceful, calm eve with words of wisdom to wish him the best. Good luck to you.

Saturday, October 11, 2008

Datuk Shah??

Oh puhleeeezzzz.....!!!!

Malacca State would be more 'famous' now than the receiver for obvious reason!

Sunday, October 05, 2008








Lagu dan Kisah Raya

Walau dah banyak lagu Raya versi baru sekarang ni, Mak Lijah masih lagi prefer lagu lama-lama zaman 60-an dan 70-an dolu-dolu. Tak kiralah kalau dibuat remix dan dinyanyikan semula oleh penyanyi-penyanyi millenium ni, telinga ni lebih serasi dengan suara Ahmad Jais, Saloma dan Sanisah Huri jer. Tak lupa yang kemudian sedikit macam lagu oleh DJ Dave, Sharifah Aini, Hail Amir dan Uji Rashid. Pehtu ada plak lagu Anuar dan Elina. (Mak Lijah tak reti nak letak lagu-lagu tu kat sini.  Ada tak sesiapa bole ajar Mak Lijah macamana nak pasang lagu kat sini?)

Pun begitu, Mak Lijah menghargai gubahan era 90-an dan awal 2000 yang juga sedap dan tak sakit telinga mendengarnya macam lagu Suatu Hari Di Hari Raya oleh M. Nasir, dan Pulanglah oleh Aishah.

Cerita Raya pulak.

Tahun ni, buat kali pertamanya sejak 15 tahun lalu, Mak Lijah tak berada di atas PLUS pada Hari Raya ke dua. Tahun ni, buat pertama kalinya Hari Raya ke dua, ke tiga dan ke empat kami sekeluarga berada di Santan, Perlis. Aduh.. best nyer... Terima kasih Pak Lijah...

Tahun ni, hanya keluarga Mak Lijah dan keluarga Abang Adik sahaja yang beraya pertama di Santan, while Abang Jam and Teh sekeluarga beraya pertama di rumah mertua masing-masing di Perak dan Kelantan.

Sehari sebelum Raya tu, Mak Lijah dah terpacak di pasar Kangar beratur kerana nak beli santan. Masa tu kira-kira pukul 6.55 pagi. Walaupun ada tiga tempat yang menjual santan,
queue tetap juga berlapis-lapis. Betapa pentingnya santan dalam menu Raya... Akhirnya, dari masih gelap, sehinggalah cerah, Mak Lijah pun dapatlah santan 3 kilo untuk buat rendang ayam, rendang daging dan gulai daging. Kuah laksa dah siap malam tadi lagi.

Pagi-pagi Raya tu, selepas sembahyang subuh, bergegas Mak Lijah ke dapur untuk "memproses" segala bagai. Nak siap cepat sebab kejap lagi nak ke masjid. Sampai je di mesjid Santan, jumpalah sanak-saudara dan sahabat-handai yang hanya kami jumpa setahun sekali. Lepas sembahyang, Mak Lijah dan Kakak berjalan balik sebab saja nak menyesakkan Jalan Santan yang dah tak berapa sempit tu.

Pada Hari Raya ke dua, f
inally, everybody was back in the small, newly renovated house filled with new furnitures. And now the photo shoot ...

SELAMAT HARI RAYA SEMUA...!





Gambar Raya



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